Tuesday, April 18, 2006
This is going to be my last entry before the mid year.
I am going to be mia-ing temporarily from the internet world.
I really hope this effort pays off.
My mid year exam results will prove everything.
Yesterday was supposed to be our last game of the season. The last match that the sec 4s will be playing. But it rained half-way. Since the game does not matter anymore cause both teams will not be getting into the semis, it will be turned into a friendly instead. But anyway, mid year is starting next week, so yeah, priority is obviously mid year.
I feel like reviewing my journey with Softball.
Sec 1: Got posted to Softball after being rejected by Netball. Dreaded trainings, displayed absolutely no interest but still put in the effort, the totally "get it over and done with" attitude.
Everything changed after my first game. Opponent was Fajar. Our team lost, but for the first time in my life, I fell in love with the sport I am playing.
In primary school, Netball was just a CCA and nothing more. But Softball has since became my life, my favourite past time, my motivation, my friend.
Sec 2: Eveline, no 25, 3rd base. We became the key players because our seniors went up to B Div. Angela became Captain, and I, Vice. It dawned upon me that my responsibilities has increased; as a player and a leader. Angela and I had to make sure that our team stands strong and tough, against all odds.We won our first trophy. We were the C Div Champ in the West Zone. I hit my first home run.
Sec 3: The last eight standing a.k.a SIGUIS: Angela, Sixian, Cec, Xueying, Yubing, Kassie, Yixuan and me. Jade left for NJ and SS quitted. The game become more and more serious when my batch went up to B Div. From 3rd base, I was changed to 2nd base. Even with adjustments here and there, our team is still a strong one. We won our 2nd Gold. This time, it's the B Div West Zone Champ. Our goal moved to the Nationals. Qualifying for the semis was our target. But we had to kiss it goodbye after losing to GMS and TK. I broke down. I was disappointed with myself. So many" What ifs" in my mind. I began to think if I am good enough for the team, whether I am a burden instead of a help. Then I had my knee injury. Then Chng left. It was the lowest point of my life. For fifteen years of my life, I have never felt so helpless and useless. Chng's words woke me up. I realised how much faith he and Coach had in me. I must not let them down. I have to be strong. Then I resigned from Council. Life has never been better for me. I am like a free soul. Council has been tying me down and being in both Council and Softball have been a hard time for me. It's like having two life. It feels like I was cut into half. It was obvious which one to choose and which one to give up. Softball needs me. Council doesn't.
Sec 4: My last year. Eveline, 2nd base, no 5. Last chance, last year, last shot.
We lost our B Div Gold and got Silver instead.
Lost our last chance for entering National's Semis.
Disappointed, angry, upset.
We were defeated again.
Cried, vented our anger, everything.
We had to accept it.
Softball means a lot to us. It is a part of our lives. Without Softball, we will not be SIGUIS. Without Softball, I will not be who I am today.
Thank you Softball for changing me, thank you Softball for allowing me to meet the people who are my best teammates and superb friends right now, thank you Softball for giving me a dream to pursue, thank you Softball for giving me the strength, courage and confidence that I need to go on. Thank you Netball for rejecting me. Thank you Mr Chng for introducing me to Softball. Thank you Miss Yeo, for your CCA arrangement. Thank you Coach, for teaching me everything that I know about Softball. Thank you Hurricanes, for being the best teammates ever. Thank you SIGUIS, for rocking my life. =D I love you guys.
I hope I have been a teammate and a vice captain that you guys can be proud of.
This journey of ours will never be forgotten.
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