Saturday, April 08, 2006
Things pretty much sucks.
Notice the spark in my eyes gone?
People always see the things that is on the surface.
Not that it's wrong, cause the appearance does attracts the attention first.
But after that, try to look deeper.
Things are not always as simple as you think.
And also, try to look things at other perspectives.
That way, you can do a better judgement.
Today's flag day is bad.
The little children are so much nicer than the adults.
Maybe because they are still young and innocent and pure, they don't know how sadist this society is.
But the thing is, we are just students trying to earn our CIP points.
And one uncle was like complaining to us about the government.
Like, ???
What has it got to do with us?
Some people are really nice and sweet.
But most of them really has got no heart.
I see people with big and fancy cars and they pretend we are invisible.
Some took a big detour to escape from us.
Some gave us the funny and weird stares.
Some made me feel as if I am a bacteria or virus or something.
It's not like I want you to donate me a 100 bucks or something.
I will willingly accept 5 cents cause it's the thought that counts.
Is it really that hard to spend a few seconds to drop some money into the can to help the needy?
Plus those aunties with children, your kids will go through flag day one day, and wait till they tell you how hard and tough it is.
Why should I hide and put a fake smile on my face when I'm sad?
Why should I?
And oh ya.
If you don't know anything about something, don't pretend that you are an expert okay?
Try to read my face sometimes.
I don't see a need to give in to you all the time.
Doesnt mean I don't say or show it means I'm not pissed off with you.
sick of life
sick of people
sick of you
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Thursday, April 06, 2006
Didn't go to school today.
My knee went kee siao again.
I'm seriously doubting whether I am still able to play sports again if my knee keeps giving me trouble.
And the worst thing is, my knee got injured in the first place not because of my playing sports,it was due to my stupidity and carelessness.
Yesterday was like the worst and most stupid game I have ever played in my life.
Don't know what the hell is wrong with us.
Our mentality, our confidence, our concentration, our superb defence, where did it all go?
I woke up yesterday, telling myself that I want to play a winning and memorable game today. I want to play this game well, and even if there is only 1% of entering the semi finals after winning the game, I will still go for it.
Sometimes I wonder if I am good enough to be in top 9.
Sometimes I wonder whether I am useful to the team or not.
Sometimes I wonder if my efforts will help the team to win or not.
Sometimes I wonder if I am living up to the expectations people have for me.
And most of the time, I was pissed because I already have high expectations for myself, I don't see a need to live up to other people's. And if I'm not good enough, then I'm not good enough.
But at least I put my heart and soul when I am playing a game and everything else aside.
Where's the sportsmanship?
Why cheer loudly only when we win a game?
It's the team's win and the team's loss.
It's the team's glory and it's the team's mistakes.
If there's no trust, then don't play in a team game.
I was on the base waiting for you to throw me the ball.
But you did not. You decided to get the runner by yourself.
You just don't trust me, do you?
Then what's the point of having me on the team?
Just tell Coach you cannot trust me on the field and ask her to put someone else.
Anything for the game, you know.
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