Thursday, April 06, 2006
Didn't go to school today.
My knee went kee siao again.
I'm seriously doubting whether I am still able to play sports again if my knee keeps giving me trouble.
And the worst thing is, my knee got injured in the first place not because of my playing sports,it was due to my stupidity and carelessness.
Yesterday was like the worst and most stupid game I have ever played in my life.
Don't know what the hell is wrong with us.
Our mentality, our confidence, our concentration, our superb defence, where did it all go?
I woke up yesterday, telling myself that I want to play a winning and memorable game today. I want to play this game well, and even if there is only 1% of entering the semi finals after winning the game, I will still go for it.
Sometimes I wonder if I am good enough to be in top 9.
Sometimes I wonder whether I am useful to the team or not.
Sometimes I wonder if my efforts will help the team to win or not.
Sometimes I wonder if I am living up to the expectations people have for me.
And most of the time, I was pissed because I already have high expectations for myself, I don't see a need to live up to other people's. And if I'm not good enough, then I'm not good enough.
But at least I put my heart and soul when I am playing a game and everything else aside.
Where's the sportsmanship?
Why cheer loudly only when we win a game?
It's the team's win and the team's loss.
It's the team's glory and it's the team's mistakes.
If there's no trust, then don't play in a team game.
I was on the base waiting for you to throw me the ball.
But you did not. You decided to get the runner by yourself.
You just don't trust me, do you?
Then what's the point of having me on the team?
Just tell Coach you cannot trust me on the field and ask her to put someone else.
Anything for the game, you know.
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