Tuesday, March 07, 2006
I'm just so tired...
Mind's not in the right place.
There's just something wrong but even I myself don't know what.
I'm so glad there is not any essay test, cause with the state my mind is in right now, even if my imagination is working, my heart is not in it. And a piece of work without putting my heart and soul into it, is rubbish.
Whenever I'm falling asleep in class, I'll turn around, stretch out my hand for some massage.
I was about to do that just now, but then i remembered, not exactly on speaking terms right now.
Don't know why la. I just don't feel like talking. It's like you know you promised someone something, and then you didn't manage to fulfil it? Then you don't have the courage to face them and everything. And you were punishing yourself for letting them down. Blaming yourself for being such a loser. Like you are not fit to even stand beside them. What will you do? They've done whatever they can for you. And you? You cannot even run 3.5 km. Eveline, you're really a loser. What is a useless piece of shit like you doing in this world?
Guys, please hate me.
I'll feel better.
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