Thursday, March 30, 2006
"I could have... , what might have been... , if only... ".
My mind is in this super blank state and everything around me is moving except myself.
It's over.
I don't know what to say and think anymore.
School's becoming a lousy place to be in.
I hate it.
Sometimes not everything that you have worked hard for will pay off.
And for me, most of the time.
I feel like I am wasting my effort.
For softball, for studies, for friends.
We still have two games next week and that's the end of our national season.
We ended our last tournament as NHurricanes without entering the semi finals.
Great, huh?
The disappointment, anger and unhappiness were so great that I felt nothing at all.
So painful that I felt numb.
The tears did not even flow.
And I'm hurting a billion times more than what I felt last year.
We blew it. again.
And we can blame no one but ourselves.
Life sucks.
I suck.
You suck.
WC and oil ball suck the most.
and sometimes I feel that she sucks too.
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