simple life with big dreams

Okay, i'm here again to say my final goodbye.
next week I'll ask my parents to temporarily cancel our internet connection.
this should have been done earlier, but yeah, anyway.

common test 2 was over yesterday.
the next examination is the 2nd biggest thing.
I'm feeling the pressure, a great deal of it by the way.
I'm on the track, but I'm not running fast enough.
It is not just about getting good results and getting into a good school.
It includes not letting yourself and your family down as well.
You would not want your hard work to go down the drain right?
You work hard to achieve something that you can be proud of.

Relative velocity is making me and my friends crazy.
Speaking of which, I gotta go continue with my homework.

And before the prelims, let's go out and relax at k box for a day. anyone?

Alright, all these pressure and sufferings will be over sooner than you think. For now, let's chiong first so that we can enjoy the days after big Os.
=D
it's show time people.

evey__** stepped on your garbage at 8:55 PM

TO ALL:
Just wanna let you all know I will not be blogging anymore until after my o levels.
Afterwhich, i promise you will see a new entry every day.
=D
Till then, bye bye for now!
To friends: LET'S MUG! 84 more days till the big O. jia you people!

evey__** stepped on your garbage at 7:20 PM

Nothing can ever top how i felt yesterday.
When the last batter was struck out, everyone ran towards my juniors and engaged in a group hug.
crying, laughing and congratulating, how i wish that time can just stop because i have so much to say to my team.
First and foremost, congratulations. =D
To: Waifoon, Ziyi, Rachel, Unice, XueYao, Yixin, Katherine, Grace, Zhi Hui and the rest of you,
thanks for making my dream come true. I really don't know what word is good enough to express how i feel right now. And i think a thank you is simply not enough.
Gaining recognition in the nationals has always been our dream. We tried and failed time and again. Apparently, a two-time west zone champion were not enough to let the school see softball in a different light and to let them realise that softball is not a dumping ground for netball rejects. We wanted to create this breakthrough that none of the sports cca have ever done before. We failed to do it, and you guys did it. Thank you so much. Thank you for making this dream a reality.
Last but not least, I can graduate in peace now, knowing that the team is in good hands. Continue to keep our unity and teamspirit going okay? must teach our future juniors properly too. =P

i still have VIDEOS. Lol. I was watching them and it was darn hilarious. Was filming beside cecilia and yubing and i managed to get their conversations. haha.
anyway, will update the videos after common test asap kay? cause it is quite troublesome.
=D

once again, congratulations to my juniors, our national champions!

evey__** stepped on your garbage at 8:08 PM

Have you ever tried studying the same old piece of information for a week?
And the fact that it was only a small chunk of things to remember?
I feel like vomitting when i see that phy geog textbook.
I feel like tearing off the chapter on coasts so that i will never see that again.
Time practice was postponed again and again.

I was super pissed with some people.
you don't just do things your way and think that the rest of the class will agree.
for your information, I DON'T AND NEVER WILL.
because unlike you, i actually studied for the test.
and unlike you, i don't waste time.
AND unlike you, i don't waste other people's time as well.
like wtf who cares if you didn't study.
there are people who studied and are ready for the test.
don't drag everyone down with your laziness alright?
selfish unconsiderate brats.
go to hell la.

anyway, to those who don't know, because people keep asking me why i always have this "don't talk to me" face, there are only three things.
1) i'm hungry
2) i'm sleepy
3) i'm thinking of something and trying to concentrate

get it now?

tmw juniors playing against nanyang.
final two from west zone!
so proud of the west zoners.

anyway,good luck to my juniors.
play a good game tmw, have fun, enjoy the game.
=D
all the way, no mercy!

i'm feeling happy for something.
but i think it's stupid to think that way.
how?
so confused right now.
is it really because of the shadow thing?
what is happening to me?!
=(

evey__** stepped on your garbage at 7:36 PM

For once,
I think miss yeo rock.
thanks for the encouragement and best wishes.
for the first time, i feel that the school is really proud of us.

First of all,
A HUGE ROUND OF APPLAUSE TO MY JUNIORS FOR GETTING INTO FINALS!
A huge breakthrough for us, and of course for the school.
=D
i'm proud of my juniors.

give it your all on thursday okay?
whatever it takes, people. =D

and ya, o levels are officially 90 days away.
speaking of which, gotta go study for geog tp.

see ya and take care

evey__** stepped on your garbage at 5:44 PM

Study session today was quite productive for me.
Ate lunch with yubing at kap mc while waiting for our tardy queen cecilia. but in the end when i finished eating and still no signs of cecilia, we decided to walk back to my house and start studying first.
geog time practice on coasts tmw and common test on coasts and weathering on wednesday.
plus juniors having their match against tk tmw.
so many things to do, so little time.

anyway, went to imm on sat with sans.
before that supposed to have chem tuition but the damn efficient admin called us just half an hour before the tuition time and informed us that the tuition is cancelled because the teacher is sick.
Like, hello? you don't just fall sick immediately. like why can't you call us earlier and not when we are already on our way?
and i was rotting for two hours with jing ting at je.

met up with the rest of the gang and had lunch.
ahminah showed up like an auntie. and we spent the rest of the day calling her auntie.
but i gotta thank her for all the photos that she took.
and for capturing those funny moves.
=D

gotta go.
take care everyone

evey__** stepped on your garbage at 9:37 PM

Just some random thingy before i log off to study geog test part 2.

you know when sometimes you feel that you have made the wrong step
you would do anything to turn back time
but you realised that it is already too late.

there are things in life where you do or say the things that you may regret later, but you are too stubborn then?
or when you just break down cause you feel hurt and that you cannot suppress the feelings any longer.
you say things to hurt people when deep inside you are blaming yourself for saying such stupid things

when i think about all the " what might have beens "
i really feel like a loser.

i wish i am stronger
so that i have more courage to say the things that i really want to say.

this entry is stupid.
bleaghs.
i wish this week will be over asap
friday hurry up come.

evey__** stepped on your garbage at 7:19 PM

并不是真的
路过而已
也不是真的
我会想你
全部不是真的
是骗自己
其实还爱你
爱着你

我以为我早想清楚
不由自主恍恍惚惚又走回头路
再看一眼有过的幸福

爱情好象流沙
我不挣扎
随它去吧
我不害怕
爱情好象流沙
心里的牵挂
不原放下
oh baby 让我这样吧

爱情好象流沙
我不说话
等待黑暗让眼泪落下
爱情好象流沙
明知该躲它
无法自拔
oh baby 是我太傻

是一再的做
一再的错不由我
我一步一步一步一步慢慢走向流沙

found this accidentally
tao zhe's 流沙
it totally describes what im feeling now.

evey__** stepped on your garbage at 4:59 PM

I got the birthday countdown thingy from ziyi's blog.
anyway, CONGRATULATIONS TO C DIV HURRICANES FOR GETTING INTO THE FINALS!!
i am so proud of you guys.
you've gone further than us.
and keep it up =D
continue breaking the records!

to me, all the softballers are like a family. good or bad, we are playing the same game, and the point is, we are like strangers that can understand each other, or whatever you call it. its that kind of feeling that you get when you are in this place where everyone is doing the same thing or feeling the same way. its the kind of feeling that i get whenever i step into padang every year.
ever since i started to play sports, i place great importance in good sportsmanship and how to be a better athlete, not just in skills, but also in personality.
no doubt there are times when you just wanna flare up when people do bad things to you and you just feel like paying he or she back, like an eye for an eye, right?
and when you finally calmed yourself down, you realised you are breaking your own rules.
and you blamed yourself for that. because you are now as low as those people.

i had a strange dream last night.
so yeah.
i'm awake. fully awake.

evey__** stepped on your garbage at 4:21 PM

I really think my juniors rawk.
they thrash other people like nobody's business.
new record : 63 -0
cool right?
greendale's a new team, yes, but 63-0 is not an easy thing to do.
xueyao's pitches were awesome. straight down the centre. like sister like sister. same athletic genes.
one last match to the semi finals! first time for Hurricanes. =D
against aes should be easy too. all the way girls, no mercy! =)
haha and yeah, as usual some losers were cursing around after their soccer balls were being confiscated.
whatever, they are a disgrace, totally.
sports are not meant for losers like them, seriously.
no sportsmanship, likes to show off even when they have nothing to show off, act pro when any other cats or dogs can play better than them and everything that losers do. blahs.

anyway, good luck to juniors for their match tmw =D
sorry i can't be there.
watching pirates with eliza and kassie.

I feel tired this few days.
feel like writing some songs in peace but it is not the right time.
after o level im going to full time accompany my guitar and keyboard. just the three of us peacefully playing our music.
that will be in 4 months time.
till then, books are supposed to be my best friends.
gonna spend more time with books now.
think i should ask my parents to cut off my internet connection, you know, just in case i cannot resist the temptation.

gotta go off now.
see ya
=D

evey__** stepped on your garbage at 8:15 PM

Watched Juniors game against nanyang yesterday after school.
It does not matter that they lost. it is the feeling that i get after watching their game.
i only have one thing to say : the team is in good hands, and i can leave with a peace of mind.
my juniors have grown into a better and stronger team than us. and i believe that they will outshine us, in both performance and in team spirit. and for that, i am proud of all of them. i am glad to have them as our successors. it was so touching to see how they worked together and how they bonded. this is a team. this is hurricanes. this is us. nothing can ever top what i felt yesterday.
and unice, i'm glad you took over second base in my place. =D it's sacred. continue defending our sacred position. =D i'm proud of you.

softball is my past, and it's not going to be my future. i managed three base hits and home runs before but i know i will not go far as an athlete. i'm not like daddy xy who is born with athletic genes. i'm not born with a genius brain either. let's just say i'm still finding the thing that i'm good at. --> talk crap. yeah. lol.

evey__** stepped on your garbage at 7:20 PM

My head is full of questions right now.
I cannot feel anything but anger and annoyance.
I'm not jealous about grandma biasness towards my cousins. i don't give a damn.
it's her overprotectiveness over them that i cannot stand.
look at what they have become, grandma.
they have become guys who cannot survive army training. they have become adults who are of no use to the society. they have become children who do not respect and care about their elders.
but i don't blame them at all, not one bit. i sympathise them. i pity them for having such an asshole for a father.

the whole family is happily looking forward to my brother's wedding, and you have to come into the picture and get the attention from everyone for getting a divorce. i think aunt's decision for divorcing you right now is in fact, too late. she should have done it earlier. now my dad, instead of preparing for my brother's wedding, has to fuss and worry about the stupid idiotic moronic you and your stupid divorce. and what did you do? when everyone is worried about your divorce, you find some new girlfriend who is equally as idiotic or even more moronic than you for actually choosing to be with you, and you fly off to don't know where for a holiday trip. you are really a bastard you know that?
i think even a new born baby is more mature than you lo.
cause i believe everyone else has a bigger heart than you.
you only think about your insignificant useless self.
and i really think your skin is darn thick. your girlfriend's skin is even thicker.
and i wish you can scram out of my house soon. i have my limits.
you asshole.
i'm giving my parents and grandma face for keeping quiet for a month.

evey__** stepped on your garbage at 7:04 PM